"...actually thats not a bad idea."
i think i can safely say with confidence that i am fantastically spastic! take it or leave it.
For all of you compulsive blog readers out there, here is my update.
Its 20 below and i am tired. i am so nervous about tomorrow and I have rage issues i think, lol. Oh well it gives me character. I need to go to bed now, at 10:45 on a friday because i have a big day ahead of me and an even bigger weekend. Chao for now! and til next time....
....drink responsibly. (not pointing fingers, just do it in general)
ok. i am at school right now. yeah, should i be? probably not, because as we speak the snow is falling at an alarming rate and will be dangerous for all by the end of the school day. A snow system came into town around 5:45, no two hour delay was called. The school system saw it coming and everything. I figure by 6:15 they will come to their senses and look at all the other cancelations and delays and join in, you know, for the safety of the young children at hand. Nothing. The effort to get to my car from my house was tremendous. While scrapping the damn car, my hair was again saturated with toxic snow. Another blow drying session was needed. I go back out to the car and see another half inch already accumulated in a short 10 minute time. Then when it was time to depart i went 10mph through the neighborhood, 10, and i still spin out of control and hit a snowbank that is in front of a strong and large mailbox. No damage, just lots of labor involved in getting it out of the snow bank. I am okay with that. I mean, sure it makes me upset that the weather is ghastly and that the traffic was horrid, but I am still safe. I took cr7 to bristol to nappanee to california. All bad. The system was so sudden that the plows hadn't been out at all, on any street. I get to school on time, go to class and mr. weil comes on the P.A. and announces a 5 minute leway for kids due to the weather. Only 5 minutes. Oh well. In success i soon find out why we didn't recieve a two hour delay, even though Elkhart Baptist and all other elkhart schools were shut-down or delayed, because the damn middle schools had a scheduled half-day already. They didn't want a delay because the middle school kids would have an "unscheduled" day off. Give em the day off then! This is the worst driving weather ever, not just for student drivers but for school buses too. I tell ya, Mark Mow makes some crappy calls every now and then. This is one of em. All is well, and we are all here safely, but it could be alot worse. More student accidents could have been reported and the poor lil elementary kids could have frozen to death at their bus stops waiting for late buses, but it didn't happen that way. I will soon have lunch and then go to a rousy period of study hall and then off to band i go. I should have skipped because it wasn't fair to me, not because of the weather. LoL. Oh geeze.
As much as I seem irritated right now, i am really very lucid. Breathing in and out, and enjoying my easy schedule for today. These kind of days dont happen very often and since this is my last semester here at memorial, i think i will utilize it to the best of my ability. I am sorry that lonnie is going to have graduation issues, and i wish he could walk with us in June, but the important thing is that he will graduate. For that, i couldn't be more happy. This weekend will also hold lots of excitement. I have solo/ensemble on saturday, my piercing(that i am terrified to get) on saturday night, and a calm sunday with work included. Friday we also have a basketball game, so pep band so be Grrreat! lol. Things are looking bright, considering the dark wintery days among us, and thats always good. Plus my car sucks in the snow, making it great for snowy parking lot fun! big up to donuts!
I am gunna go, gotta prep some things for C3TV's next broadcast of the "Every other DAILY SHOW"...we think it will really take off, or maybe not. I guess we will just have to see. Me and Bobby are anchors this semester, so the broadcasts shouldn't suck too bad. Til next time.....
...drive safe and make sure to floss dailly!
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Yesterday I had an episode. It questioned myself, my friendships, my family, and my future. All of that in one 24 hour period. It is quite amazing. I mean, i dont feel 100% better about it all, but i do feel more comfortable. I had quality time with Lindsay, and it was much needed. It felt like a friday night, and its only monday. I had a blast, and it was definately reassuring. A wise of friend of mine said, "did you fall into some slight depression, you seemed so sad?" my retort "no, i just wasn't happy" I guess he was right. I wont go into details, its not cool. Whats done is done, and i just have to focus on whats right here in front of me. I am not saying I am completely satisfied, but being with my friends today really helped me out. Its so comforting, especially lindsay. Things can and will get better, its just a matter of time. it sucks, but thats the breaks, i guess.
Good news of the day:
My discrete teacher says if we donate blood on thursday we get 10 extra credit points.
Bad news of the day:
I am terrified of getting blood drawn, on top of my needle-type phobia. It makes me cringe just thinking about it.
My song of the day is:
Split Screen Sadness by: John Mayer
The words just move me.
Til next time....
....stay in shape and avoid the student center, its a crazy mother fucker!
And I don't know where you went when you left me but
Says here in the water you must be gone by now
I can tell somehow
One hand on the trigger of a telephone
Wondering when the call comes
Where you say it's alright
You got your heart right
Maybe I'll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can't find a flight
We share the sadness
Split screen sadness
Two wrongs make it all alright tonight
ALl you need is love is a lie cause
We had love but we still said goodbye
Now we're tired, battered fighters
And it stings when it's nobody's fault
Cause there's nothing to blame at the drop of your name
It's only the air you took and the breath you left
Maybe I'll sleep inside my coat and
Wait on the porch 'til you come back home
Oh, right
I can't find a flight
So I'll check the weather wherever you are
Cause I wanna know if you can see the stars tonight
It might be my only right
We share the sadness
Split screen sadness
I called
Because
I just
Need to feel you on the line
Don't hang up this time
And I know it was me who called it over but
I still wish you'd fought me 'til your dying day
Don't let me get away
Cause I can't wait to figure out what's wrong with me
So I can say this is the way that I used to be
There's no substitute for time
Or for the sadness
Split screen sadness
We share the sadness
things cant get worse, right? one can only hope. in fact i think things are turning, up or down, i dont know, but as long as its turning, i will be okay. i always am, and i always will.
Why the fuck not!?! Rock on!
The Best of Times by: STYX
Tonight's the night we'll make history, honey, you and I
And I'll take any risk to tie back the hands of time
And stay with you here tonight
I know you feel these are the worst of times
I do believe it's true
When people lock their doors and hide inside
Rumor has it it's the end of Paradise
But I know, if the world just passed us by
Baby I know, you wouldn't have to cry
The best of times are when I'm alone with you
Some rain some shine, we'll make this a world for two
Our memories of yesterday will last a lifetime
We'll take the best, forget the rest
And someday we'll find these are the best of times
These are the best of times
The headlines read 'these are the worst of times'
I do believe it's true
I feel so helpless like a boat against the tide
I wish the summer winds could bring back Paradise
But I know, if the world turned upside down
Baby, I know you'd always be around
The best of times are when I'm alone with you
Some rain some shine, we'll make this a world for two
Our memories of yesterday will last a lifetime
We'll take the best, forget the rest
And someday we'll find these are the best of times
These are the best of times
And so my friends we'll say goodnight
For time has claimed it's prize
But tonight will always last
As long as we keep alive memories of Paradise...
Not much going on here in E-town...a new semester begins and it is the beginning of the end of highschool. Its a moment you have waited for your whole life, to one day come to school knowing you wont be coming back soon. Then what? I have prepared myself so much for this moment, that i forgot to prepare myself for bigger ones. Ones of depth and substance that go beyond highschool. Thats frustrating, I can't relate. I can't concur this time. Where does that leave me? It leaves me with the best god damn friends i could ever ask for in my most favorite place in the world...and thats Elkhart. I love it here. My family is here, and my friends our here, and my highschool is here....my wholel life is here. Wow, its weird to think i will leave that in the coming months. Slowly and surely i will drift away from my paradise, this place i have so much invested in. This is the time in your life where people start to ask you about your plans, and moving on and what not. It just seems so insignificant. All i want to do, is go to highschool, with my highschool friends, and go to my after-school job, and be with my family. Thats 'right here, right now." I can't sit here and worry about something that i have yet to experience and/or understand. I just can't. I have friends in different places, places of higher education. They mean alot to me, more than a blog could ever do them justice, but i am not there. I can't fully understand the concept of 'family' for them...and i wish i could. i wish i could grasp the concept of life beyond higschool. i can't. not now at least. I need to be happy with what i have right now...cuz this is it for me, this is what i have always wanted and looked forward to. I just want to say, "i am just having a good time now" when people ask me what i plan to do. I am comfortable with that, are you? I am happy with myself, are you? I know where i stand with my friends, i feel like they wouldn't lie to me about how they felt, and that makes me feel very fortunate, 'the luckiest'. So you ask me now, "what do you plan on doing next year?" and i will just say, " i haven't the foggiest." And thats being true to myself and to eveyone else. Straight up. no hidden agenda.
This past weekend while at IU, i was introduced to Postal Service. Its a great band. I can't even give them justice, so you would just need to try em out and see what you think. In fact, the song of the day is in fact, Postal Service. Its a great sound with great lyrics...just 'shabangin'! here ya go! til next time....
....dont try to change for anyone but yourself.
The District Sleeps Alone Tonight by: Postal Service
smeared black ink: your palms are sweaty
and I'm barely listening to last demands
I'm staring at the asphalt wondering what's buried underneath where I am
I'll wear my badge:
a vinyl sticker with big block letters adherent to my chest
that tells your new friends I am a visitor here:
I am not permanent
and the only thing keeping me dry is
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
d.c. sleeps alone tonight
you seem so out of context in this gaudy apartment complex
a stranger with your door key explaining that I am just visiting
and I finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
the district sleeps alone tonight after the bars turn out their lights
and send the autos swerving into the loneliest evening
and I am finally seeing why I was the one worth leaving
How can you express your feelings on situations that are so in depth and emotional, when you are, in fact, a world away? To know how to deal with experiences, you must first be able to experience. My naivitiy prevents me from knowing how to react or act to certain situations and it kills me. Time can only tell. I guess there is light at the end of the tunnel, but it takes longer to get through it i guess. I am scared. Clenched the seat and shut your eyes, there is no relief til the light surrounds all of me.
if you feel down, just listen to this...
"Everything's not lost"
by the one and only COLDPLAY
it may just give you that little something extra
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Today is the day! Erin, LIndsay, and I leave for Bloomington for a three day stay! It will be great! My birthday is on Sunday and i will be 18! Yeah for me! LoL.
Alright, on a more lucid level, I am done with my Business Law class. Finally! This class was so boring. I mean it was interesting but my teacher had the personality of a wet mop. For real. I think I might want to take a class later in life going into further detail of legal issues, but prolly not. LoL. I change my mind os much i dont even know what i want to do with my life. I have the next 6 months planned and thats about it. I dont have the mental capacity to plan any further than that. I mean i know i am going to college in August, but i have no clue what i am in for, and i am not going to try. My 6 month plan is fool proof. I will go to school 5 out of the 7 days in a week for a little over 7 hours. I will work ocassionally after school during the school week and more than likely on the weekends. I will go to band and play in concerts. I will go out with friends on weekends, and sometimes weeknights. I will fulfill my addiction to coffee at the grind prolly my usual three times a week. I will also occasionally have night-cap with some of my friends...lol. I will drive my car and listen to music. Get online and chat with my local and not so local friends. I will constantly think about getting out of town, and soon realize I dont really want to leave at all. I will finish out highschool and wonder whats next. I know things will get rough at times, and go awesome at others. Most of all, I still know, 'that i want to rock and roll all night, and party everyday!'
Things seem pretty great, in fact, the best they have been in a while. Things just kick ass and i am having a "shabang'n" good time. Thats all that matters. So put the issues aside, cuz i didn't sign up for theatre, so cast the drama aside.
There are three things I can't live without:
1.) G to the D, (our heavenly father)
2.) my friends, along with my family(there is no difference)
3.) my music(i love to listen and play)
Random thoughts have filled my head. Like a whirlwind of snow that circles in front of you on a still and snowy day. I try to think deep and analyze everything so carefully, but I am unsuccessful everytime. There is no way, i can think deep like alot of my friends. I will never write as good as the college kid, especially ant or gowdy. I will never write as good as Lindsay, or Collin for that matter. I dont care, i write in my blog to get things out and express ideas that only I seem to understand. I think thats okay. It doesn't matter if someone else doesn't understand it, because i think just posting what you really think is making you a stronger and braver person. I have a lot of respect who keep their feelings private and for those who make them public. Sometimes i dont even blog to get out feelings, just to talk about my day. whether it be boring or not, i feel like my days are pretty damn important.
Trying to figure me out is impossible, so dont try. I cant even figure myself out. Many people have tried and failed in the process, its not worth your life...trust me! As soon as you think i am harmless and laid back...i am not! To tell you the truth, if you think i am laid back, you must not be paying close attention. I get very complex, very suddenly. Like right now, if you are reading this, you are saying..."god damn, what the fuck is she talking about." Thats alright. Its cool, i am cool with being a lil competitive, and violent. Its alright, i am cool with my vulgar language and inuendo from time to time. I do have a sweet side though, i really do. I am very generous to the people i care about. I would do anything for anyone if they asked(and it was within reason...lol) and i would look out for anyone who needed help.
I am rambling at this point because my final only took me 20 minutes and i have to be at school til 10. So i have been writing for about 35 minutes. I just like to type what i am thinking. I am thinking now, i want to look at some prom dresses online with this girl jessica who is sitting next to me. That sounds like an 'ok' plan.
Til next time...
....."T.T.F.N" - Tigger
the people you love are the last ones you expect to lie to you. It hurts. It cuts so deep when your family has been hiding things from you and deliberately doing it. Its a feeling i can never quite a explain. I have been cut.
I am not going to let it get to me, but i think the curse of the Shannon Birthdays continues...and its not even my birthday yet. 'Ignorance is bliss'...yeah right..LoL. I am too excited to get down about whats been goin on lately, but it definately put a damper on things. I wont go into full detail, but it kinda sucks. Oh well...
...Friday is almost here! This weekend should be great! and it will be! i hope the b-town kids are just as excited as us e-town kids. Good times are sure to be had. I know collin and lonnie give there best wishes to all of you, along with danielle.
I have one final left to go before i get to go...lol. It should be an interesting week ahead of me. Busy busy busy! just the way i like it. LoL. This was a short one, but its time for bed. I love you all and GOD BLESS. and til next time....
...dont lie to your loved ones, you aren't just hurting them, but mostly yourself.
song of the day:
"volcano" - Damien Rice
(what can i say, i wasn't too chipper...lol)
This will be fast, i promise...lol. Finals start tomorrow morning and i am not even close to being ready for them. thats alright though. I will find a way i am sure. I didn't help myself either by making myself dumber. How does one get dumber?..by watching stupid horror movies. ah, Freddy vs. Jason was the biggest crock of sh*t i have ever seen. Oh sure, they scare from time to time with people jumping out or something, but did anyone really win in the end?...no. To tell you the truth I thought both washed up killers had their final movies like ten years ago...the ones that said it was the final this or that. Anywayz...I dont know if any of you care about it or anything but lets just say you can predict the ending. How about them apples!
I also have been finding myself spending alot of time with my brother...we watched FvJ together...kind of like a sibling bonding moment. It seems weird, just because me and brother have never really communicated on a deeper level than 'stop looking at me you whore/bitch.'(what can i say, we are very vulgar) He is leaving for 4 months on thursday to Texas for his Air Force basic training. Its just gunna be me and my mom here soon and that upsets her a little...not having her only son home. There is an upside though...i get to fly down to texas when my brother graduates from basic...it will be like his highschool graduation and everything, considering he never got to walk for graduation. we are oh so proud of him...lol, no seriously, we are happy he is getting back on the right track. Plus lately he has been in a giving mood and is letting me get all this cool stuff....yeah! I will miss him, but I wont mind it being less crowded here. I am sure it will get old fast.
The week is not moving fast enough for most and not for me either. I am so excited to get done with this semester and get better aquainted with the beautiful campus of IU-Bloomington...lol. Its almost wednesday, which is almost thursday, which is almost friday when we leave! But til then, i have to buckle down and concentrate on my finals...even though i will pass them all anyway. Oh well. Maybe i will skip first hour tomorrow, that final is not til friday...and with this new rediculous tardy policy coming into effect maybe i should take all the freebies i can get. Who knows?!
I leave you today with my 'Fuck this shit' happening of the day.
I was in c3TV(our highschool newcast) and i look over to the local news reporter who isn't doing a god damn thing and i say, "hey, why aren't you writing this story?" and she says, "i couldn't find any local news...i mean, there is like nothing going on." obviously this statement frustrates me because although the Elkhart Truth may not always be truthful it does hold local information. I see it sitting next to her and i say, "why not use the paper right there?' her response, "I did. It was all stupid." Finally i am at my most frustrated level (this means you better run cuz i am about to bring out the bitch). Calm, but firm i end the conversation with this. "well, how about i kick you across the face and let you bleed on the newspaper, that way when you pick it up again to look up stories, you can report about how Shannon Bontrager kicked the shit out of you, and then you wouldn't have me down your neck... because at least you would have a story."
Harsh....yes. Horrible....most definately. Is it my fault she talked out her ass before thinking?....no. If i had kicked her across the face, it might as well of been her own foot, cuz she had it coming. (NOTICE: I did not kick her across the face, nor did she bleed. This was an angry threat, driven by fake blonde stupidity. i do have a rage problem from time to time, but at least i admit it.) Also, ryan told me to do it and she thought it was funny...so thats where i said, "FUCK THIS SHIT"....AND THAT IS THE "FUCK THIS SHIT" HAPPENING OF THE DAY!
ALright then, i am gunna go sleep and hopefully you all have a wonderful day! love you all! til next time...
...i'll just be at the bar!
(NOTICE: I am not 21, so i can not legally go into a bar in the state of Indiana.....yet)
alright, now that i have everyone's attention, this is what i want to say. I am not perfect! I even suck at life sometimes. I may not write clearly or get out what i want to say without confusing someone along the way. I know this. I know i wear hats alot, i know i have a slight speech impediment. I also have a funny walk and a strange phobia of aliens, seriously. I also know, i have a temper problem and i hate to lose. I dont like to be taunted and, unfortunately, i do like to taunt others. i hate when i am wrong, and I feel awful when i prove someone else wrong. I care about people, especially those who care about me, and even more when they dont. I look past first impressions and make conclusions only when they are made upon me. I want to be excepted, but who wouldn't? I like to talk to new people, and speak telepathically with old friends. I dont like being molested, but i dont mind being the butt of a "clean" joke. I do mind being taken for granted, and would never do that to anyone else. I love to vent about the little things, and i hate bottling the big things up. I dont like to subscribe to drama, there are too many issues. I do like to read cosmo...thats more my pace. I do like to read about sex tips, but i dont like to practice them. I like to hear and tell embaressing stories to break the ice, and love feeling okay with that. I dont miss the way things once were, but i do think about the past. I really look forward to the future, especially when i know the friendships i most adore will endure. I hate to think i no longer make the effort towards things that use to matter most, especially when i acknowledge it everyday. I do have regrets, but they have me better. I don't know if "my song" or what i truly feel makes me say the things I do, but i do know that "my song" kicks ass. I do know alcohol and "too much party" can impair your decsion making abilities, but i also know it can be a release that mountain dew can't compare to. I know i am not legal, but hell...has that ever stopped anyone before? I would never pressure anyone i cared about into something they didn't want to do, and i also would never defend myself to anyone who doesn't need an explanation. I know i tend to ramble, i dont know what about. I know i love everyone, but on completely different levels. I know some things will never change, and some for the better. I know i have never- ending love for everyone i have encountered, good and bad, becuase they were the people that shaped my life. Some people will drift away from me, and others will draw nearer. I am definatley happy with my life the way things are now. I am definatley not happy with my life the way things were before i met my friends. I do know i have obvious issues, but obviously i am taking care of it...geeze. I know alot of you dont understand what i say, but i know that it doesn't matter if you understand, only that i express what i understand. This is what i understand: Its damn good to be breathing today. Take a deep breath.
I have so many things i would like to say, and talk about. They aren't important today. People know how i feel, they know where i stand. If they dont know, theres nothing i can do but invite them to ask questions. I love you all so very much, and i will always be there for everyone. Til next time...
...dont wait until its too late to say goodbye and dont ever hestitate to say hello.
p.s. good luck to all of you in school. One more semester to go(for now)! thank god!
oh geeze. school has really taken alot out of me.....i mean, i am exhausted from two days of school, man, will i ever make it next year at college? will i even pass the first semester? good god, i hope for my sake i do...lol. i think i will be okay, but damn, i suck at school. its just not my thing. now being cool is pretty much second nature....it truly is. I, as a cool person, must say that if i had it my way, it would be dance party USA every single day! hell yeah. okay okay...so maybe thats not the best idea, but hey "i want to rock and roll all night, and party everyday!" Isn't that the only way to live?! Well, this child must arise in the dark hours of the morning to go to school. Farewell my friends, i love you all and til next time...
...dont pet strange animals, just dont. its not worth it.
I am so sad to that this is the conclusion to my winter break. It has been a blast. I have meant new people, reaqauinted with old friends, and made the dust whirl around a bit. No drama this year, yeah! Nothing but good time, and even better memories. I dont remember having a break this good. Last year i was depressed and only had a good time when i was with lindsay. I mean, i didn't even smile in any of my christmas pictures last year, it was like i was physically unable to. LoL.
Lindsay, my most trusted and genuine friend, is great. We had so much fun this break, sometimes we didn't get to be together but when we did get together, it didn't matter where we were. It was just fun. She knows me better than anyone, she is my rock.
I have been so true to myself these past couple of weeks. I have not been shy or hypocritical(i know i know, i am god awful at spelling...lol). I have been doing things that i want to do, when they suit me best. It sounds really selfish, and yeah it is....but, i never do anything that would hurt anyone that i love or care about. Thats just me. I feel more confident as a person. I love being with my friends. The college kids being home was great, even though sometimes we weren't always together, i think when we were it was that much better. I enjoyed just being with whoever. It was great. I was sick a lil bit at the beginning but it didn't hold me back. I mean i could babble and babble about how great it was. I think if you know me well enough, you can just hear it my voice and see it in my face.
I also realized how great and important love is. I am not looking for it, dont get me wrong, but I saw it in some really awesome people and it made me more confident in finding myself so i can eventually find it. I have to give some shout outs. Collin and Amber are the best people. Separate or together, they just make sense with everything. They have been together for a year, and i think that is a great accomplishment. It truly is, at this age and the separation they face, they deserve nothing but happiness. When i see them together, i see two people really in love, and no matter how many times he "insults" her or how many times she "pummels" him, they know it works. It makes you feel good to jsut know them. Also, Anthony has found such an amazing person to spend his time with. His girl Katie is absolutely wonderful and they make such a great combination. I see his devotion and loyalty to her and the same type of feelings coming back from her and it truly gets me. Along with Collin and Amber, i hate to see people who obviously are bananas about each other have to endure such distances. It really just breaks my heart. Life just isn't fair sometimes, but its rewards for being patient are so great. I think the rewards have been coming in mass amount for those couples. I wish them nothing but the best. I love you guys. You are the best.
Most of my friends, and myself included, are single. which rocks, but it does have some low point and some high points...example:
LP- no one to kiss on new years
HP-you get to sing the new years song, because you aren't kissing(i mean, you only get to sing that song once a year...LoL)
LP- no heart felt valentines
HP- you get so much candy to yourself
LP-The winter chill is cure with a blanket, not with a partner
HP - no ones body sweat will get all over you
LP- you have to pay for all of your own dinners
HP- you can flirt with the waitor/waitress
For me those are some high and low points. I am sure some would disagree, but hey, this is my blog bitch. LoL, j/m. I have two particular friends that i would like to hook up, but they dont know about it yet. It would be really cool if it really works. You'll have to stay tuned. Another good advantage to being single is, you get to feel giddy when you get a crush. Those are the best. I love having crushes, because you secretly love the person, and you want to tell them so bad...but you know the end result will just be rejection, so you just continue to love them secretly and hope they find out, even though you aren't telling any body. (not that i feel like that or anything....lol, hahaha) I think we will save that blog for another day. Hehehe
Well I really need to be going to bed. I have to go to church bright and early. I hope you all have a safe and happy return to school and continue to be triumphant in your studies. Good night and GOD BLESS. And til next time.....
...."Dont Stop Believing!"
I wonder what my song of the day is?!?! If you dont know, just take a JOURNEY though your brain, it will come to you....lol
Oh yeah....
Sign the guestbook bitches! J/m....do what you like. hehehe
This is my first new years entry. Yeah! If you are part of the dedicated blog fan club, you have probably already read AntCat first entry of the year. Well i am not drunk. Its 1 in the afternoon and I am reminising about the evening before. It was great. I was surrounded by a great group of people and spent the night at charlotte's. It was fun all night, but the most fun came after the ball dropped. It is 2004. The year i have ultimately waited for my entire life. Its weird to believe it is finally here. I will be graduating this year, along with entering college. Change is in the air, can you feel it? Maybe not yet, but soon my friends....LoL. My birthday is in 18 days. The countdown has begun. I will be 18, and this is my golden birthday, you only get one in your whole lifetime, so you have to make it memorable. I mean, its cool enough you get one birthday a year, but this golden birthday is once in your whole life. I will be in Bloomington visiting my friends on my birthday, so I think it will be a great birthday. There is no structure to this entry, but i think thats okay. I have a headache, because i had stayed up to late...
I wont go into great detail about the evening, but it was fun. I got to try some new things and some more familiar things. I felt fine the whole night and I wouldn't do anything different. Like i said earlier, there were great people there and it was a good atmosphere. I have to get ready for my day though. I have a Rose Bowl party to attend at my Dad's house this afternoon and I want to call some people. I hope you had a fun and adventurous night. I love you all, and god bless. til next time...
...watch your blood alcohol level!