love is only a feeling

i can sum up my weekend in two words: fucking beautiful!

thats it for now, drop me a line! til next time...

...muah!

this is to fix what i have so uncarefullly said. Earlier i refered to Kris Kros as the starters of the big hanging clocks worn around the neck, but to my misfortune, Public Enemy and Flava Flave, very old school, was first to adopt the trend. So my slander towards the girl with the massive time piece around your neck, i am sorry. Felipe, thanks for showing me the way! god bless!

the infamous "barton ball"...what?!

hookay! Today if i was watching the news of any kind i would hear only a.) the demolition of the barton ball or b.) the release of "The Passion. Both things great, but i want to hear about the world and their problems, not about the world's views about our problems. Its sad. THey dont give a shit about OUR problems, they want us to care about THEIR problems. I think thats good. Also at lunch i heard someone saying that someone had a theory that the media controls the government....hmm, stupid. Let's report the news my friends, its out there, go find it!

Day two of Lent, and i am A-OK! Except, not eating meat is harder than i thought. My dad didn't know about my sacrifice and brought home a big pack of Martin's chicken(my favorite) for dinner. He was kind of mad, but what can you do. I felt bad, and wanted to eat it just to please him, but i would rather please GOD before my father. Don't get me wrong, i love my dad, but dad doesn't go out of his way to spend time with compared to Jesus dying for my sins. I think its Jesus 1, Dad 0. I found that coffee is a good fix for the lack of pop I am drinking, yet i was reading that it can do more harm than good. So i better just use this time to ween off the stuff completely. I am sure it will be good for me.

Today was crazy 80's day and I think alot of kids have a false idea of what the 80's were. Can you blame them? Some of these kids were born in 1989 for crying out loud. I was barely 4 when the 80's came to an end. Thank goodness for VH1, right?! lol. I participated, but didn't so a good job. I did the torn up sweatshirt thing, and the side pony-tail. It was enough to count for spirit week. I think my favorite outfit was this sophmore who was wearing a huge clock around her neck. Like Kris Kross, the old rap group, that was 90's, but it looked good despite.

We had an early release yesterday and about 15-18 of us went to Ryan's for all you can eat! Well, all i ate was a veggie salad, a fruit salad, and a helping of mac and cheese, and some gummi bears on top of nonfat strawberry yogurt. I think it was delicious, plus after watching Zach eat all those steaks and pieces of chicken, i became woozy. That was just gross. In fact, he went into the bathroom to try to throw up cuz he ate so much. Collin even punched him in the stomach but he still failed. I left before things got out of hand. I am glad i did to. yuck!

Its almost friday, and my weekend has structure but is open to suggestions. I have things i can and should do, but all are negotiable. In fact, i think i am gunna go see The Passion on sunday, but if i dont, i am sure it will be there next week. It sounds like a great film, and i am looking forward to seeing it, i just everyone to have their moments before mine. Plus, i know alot of people promoting christianity and stuff will be there afterwards trying to get you to go here or there, but i am happy at the church i'm at now, and i dont want anyone making me feel bad for not wanting to listen, you know? I do care, but this movie is going to be special for me and i want to share it with people i care about.

Well, i guess thats all for now. I hope everyone has fun this weekend, no matter what it may be. Live life and drink it up! haha. lata! til next time...

...dont do anything i wouldn't do*

*literally, i am not responsible for your actions. lol

yes yes yall, to the beat yall!

I got the Jack Handy fever and i am gunna grace you with another brilliant quote.
'I think a good product would be a "Baby Duck Hat." It's a fake baby duck, which you strap on top of your head. Then you go swimming underwater until you find a mommy duck and her babies, and you join them. Then all of the sudden, you stand up out of the water and roar like Godzilla. Man those ducks would really take off!' - Jack Handy

It just makes my day, everyday.

Yeah for Elkhart! The weather is starting to turn to spring, i am sure there will be many more snow storms ahead, but i am living in the now and the now says, "its fucking beautiful out!" THe now is right! It is! I love being able to wear my sandals again, and not wearing a coat. I guess i could do it anytime, i just choose not to expose my skin to the snow. Oh well. This weekend is supposed to be wonderful, and thats great. Last home basketball game on friday including all the coming home week fun stuff, sadies or not(haven't decided yet) on saturday, and relaxation on sunday. Mucho Fun!

thats all for right now! hopefully more sometime soon. til next time...

....take care of you!

p.s. i love you all. muah!

"i raise my glass to our happy ending..."

'If i lived back i nthe wild west days, instead of carrying a six-gun in my holster, I'd carry a sodering iron. That way, if some smart-aleck cowboy said something like, "Hey, look. He's carrying a sodering iron!" and started laughing, and everybody else started laughing, I could just say, "That's right, it's a sodering iron. The sodering iron of justice." Then everybody would get real quiet and ashamed, because they had made fun of the sodering iron of justice, and I could probably hit thme up for a free drink.' - Jack Handy

Conpliments of Genesis, that really just stuck out to me as funny. There are so many more too. This month the only thing I really enjoyed, content wise, of Genesis, were the Jack Handy quotes at the bottom of every page. They are LOL funny.

This weekend was productive, more or less. All day saturday i sat on my ass til the evening. That was fun though. I mean, i guess the idea that i had all this time to do whatever i wanted was kind of overwhelming so i ended up chickening out and doing nothing, and enjoyed it. Who knew?! That night me, collin, drew and lindsay went to mishawaka to see GOTHIKA at the dollar theatre, which is now 2 dollars for an evening show and 1.50 for the day, thats ludicris. I am gunna start going on wednesdays so i can get in for .75cents. thats the way to go, if you ask me. Anyway, the movie was really good. It was alot less scary then i thought, but it was still enthralling none the less. Halle Berry was great for the part, and did it well.

Taco Bell was next on the agenda, but was not the best, the food i mean. The conversation was great, but man, thats the worse Taco Bell food i have had ever. A lil on the disappointing side. I found myself home by 10, and i had to take advantage of the few hours left of the night, so i went to ryan miseners house with jo. There, we just sat and talked and hung out, nothing too major, but always fun. I like Ryan, he is a swell kid. I like a majority of the younger band kids. They are all really great, most of the time. lol.

We had a concert at the Elco today with the Elkhart Municipal Band. It was an experience, i guess. It really didn't do anything for me, i mean, our band is just as good if not better than the Municipal Band, so it was really an experience that was musical changing or anything. Oh well. My private lessons instructor, Deb Inglefield, was the soloist at today's concert. Man does she look funny, like a lil knome. Plus, she sucked(an alternative for fucked) it up too. I mean, she is great, dont get me wrong, but it was just so funny. She has been super nice to me, but she can't get over the fact that my tongue is pierced. She has told all of her private students and musical aquaintances. I guess she tells everyone cuz she wants them to know she is my teacher and despite my piercing i can still play, and that she had everything to do with that. I am just as good at my french horn as i was a month ago, so i dont know what her malfunction is. Its aight though. It was a full family affair today though, i have never had that many people from my family come to hear me play, it was a nice change of pace. I had my mom, her boyfriend, brother, dad, his girlfriend, grandma, aunt, and uncle. Thats a world record for me. It was great, and with deb being the soloist, they reallly got to see what a lovely instrument the french horn really is, and that my mom' money is going to waste, cuz i will never sound that smooth. hahahaha.

Lately things have been going really well, and i have had no complaints. I dont remember a time when things for me, seemed to be so smooth, you know? it just makes me wonder, when is it going to end? I mean, usually i have these really big highs and then it all comes crashing down and i can hardly pick myself up again, i dont want that to happen. If it does, i would like it to happen before september so i can go to IU and be happy, you know? Right now, its also like all my friends are single, almost, and its nice, cuz you aren't the only one like without somebody, but i think, wouldn't it be nice to just have someone. Not necessarily in a sexual way or anything, but sometimes, friends just aren't enough and their is that other person that kind of fills in the blanks. Their is no one really I would want to fill in my blanks at school, and thats okay, but it would just be nice to have that other half. I can definately live without it, but i dont want to find myself all of the sudden the only one without someone. Cuddling is nice along with companionship, but you have to want to do that with someone, and here, there is no one i want to do that with. Maybe this fall when i go to college i will meet some nice guy, but i guess we will just have to wait til then. I will live, i suppose...lol. It will all work out, right? you make your own future, and thats what i'll do.

I can't complain about life. I love it, and i enjoy it as much as i can. I am not taking this year for granted, nor will i ever. I am really excited about the weeks to come and the months to follow. Take care, and i love you all, really. til next time...
...'before you criticize someone, walk a mile in their shoes. That way, you'll be a mile from them and you'll have their shoes.' - jack handy

The Rin Yne Tales

OKay, this is how it is. I am not gunna even give this story enough justice and its gunna be a shame, but none the less, its a great tale of struggle, confusion, and survival. enjoy.

It all starts with me and erin leaving work at 9pm. Erin had just worked an 11 hour shift and me a whoppin 4. We both were a lil beat so we decide to go get money from martins and go hang out. On the way back from martins going behind the northpointe gym, i hear a loud bang from my vechile, cuz i was following erin in her aspire. I had no clue what had just happened, and before i know it erin is pulling into the perkins parking lot. I was thinking, I dont want to go to Perkins, this sucks....turns out, it wasn't for pleasure. Erin had blown out her tire behind the gym, which explains the loud bang. She had hit a small curb and busted the hell out of that poor tire. I mean, we are talking gashing hole and sinking car. You are thinking, oh her car is the size of a rollerskate, its no big deal. Well....

....it was damn it! i have never seen, read about, or helped fixing a flat tire. Erin had done it once before. If you know Erin, you know she does things on her own. She is an independent woman! I am not. I like to get help and watch from a distance. Of course, the freezing rain starts as soon as the tire blows out, so it was very wet and cold. Also, this is the night i didn't bring a coat to work cuz i thought i wouldn't be out that long afterward. So find every piece of clothing i can out of my car and bundle up. Erin has a whole entire thrift shop in her trunk so she had sweaters, hats, coats, blankets, and towels all in her tiny chicken nugget sized car. Moving that stuff is a challenge in itself, but not that last, oh no....

....challenge number #2. Removing the donut from the trunk. Apparently the donut is bolted down to the car. I mean, sure, it makes sense, but is it really necessary, okay, it probably is. Anyway...ERin had it in her head that the way to loosen something is to turn it to the left. "Righty tighty, lefty loosey"...enough said. So she is muttering this while struggling to get the damn donut out of the fucking car. I even tried, and it was not coming up, i mean, we are talking, tighter that ever. turns out erins little method of loosening things was wrong. Right was to loosen, left was to tighten. So there went 15 minutes of time wasted. Car 1, me and erin 0.

....challenge #3. Jacking up the car. The car is a light, little, purple, driving machine, it cant be that hard to lift it up. WELL, it was. Now the temperature has dropped to freezing, cuz the rain is now snow. Erin is on her hands and knees just trying to get this piece of shit jack to go up. Well once she fgures it out, we also figure out that we are lifting the wrong part of the car. So she gets it down and starts over, yet again, wrong end. What were we doing wrong? I mean, the physics of it all seemed so simple. Anywho...we got it up finally the right end of the car, and soon realized. What now? The hub cap had to come off. And to our surprise it was the easiest thing to get off. Car 1, me and erin 1. game is tied.

.....Challenge #4. getting that nasty ass tire off the damn car. Well, not to our surprise this was the most taxing job of them all. The lugnuts had to come off, but how did they come off. We had the tools, but no strength, at this point we were fucking up and we didn't know how to bull shit our way out of this mess. Finally erin gave in and went into the perkins to ask for help. I was still trying to figure it all out when she came back with two guys. Get this, they are mechanics. They jsut happen to be finsihing dinner. What are the chances. He said, our jack was in the wrong place and the brake had to be pushed down when the lugnuts were being taken off. Oh.....well that makes sense.

Smooth sailing....or was it?
Once the mechanics stepped in, things went pretty smoothly. They got the nasty tire off and got the new donut on. Things seemed to be turning up, then....
....the donut didn't have enough air to support the aspire. But, of course they have a compressor in their truck. So....they go get it, turn that baby up and are only able to get like a quarter of inch of air into that tire(meaning the tire was lifted off the ground about a quarter of an inch). They informed us to drive slow and not very far, even though the donut can last 50 miles usually, that this one would not make it that far. Erin lives out in the styx, so best bet, was my daddy's house. WE left in the drive way and drove off. It was a beautiful moment. i mean, it took us an hour to get that samn car running again. I was beat, cold, and wet...i just wanted to go home.

As i was driving ERin back to the boonies, we were passing traffic and we decide a really funny slapstick comedy joke. I always think that other cars have their brights on, when they really dont, so i flash them. They flash me back and i really see what their brights look like. Tonight in this case i did that, and i was thinking after it happened, those damn lights should be illegal. I felt like i was in a mystical entrapment ready to be beamed up. It was disturbing, erin thought i just look like a deer in the headlights. so there is a difference in opinion there. oh well.

Who loves a good ramble? i do!
well, this is just a lil of our exciting lives. The laughter was still present despite the anger and suffering involved, and memories were formed. This is what friends do for each other. I wouldn't want it any other way. Take care.

til next time...
....check your tire pressure.

r O.C.ks!

two days in a row, this is flipping ridiculous. you would think i had something better to do with my time, but i dont. I come home and sit around on my ass, and do that all night long. Oh sure, every now and then i work, or i go to some band thing, but in the end i just end up being lazy and watching TV.

Speaking of TV, i watched the O.C. tonight after Pit rehearsal. I didn't want to start watching, but i did, and its great. I love it! (Ryan, just take Marissa back! You dont want Teresa, you want Marissa!...LoL) Good God the madness.....i love it!

Lonnie, you are one crazy mother fucker and i mean that from the bottom of my christian heart. Even though you torture me with derogatory comments about my choices, you still give me some sort of comfort about them too. I know stuff is rough for you and for me and most of the times we just kind of bitch at each other, but there isn't anyone i would rather bitch at than you. You are one of my dearest friends, and I hope that we can continue to be that way for a long time. I know you will do well in the future, and if you have goal you should stick with. Dont lose sight of what you want, and don't be a hypocrit along the way. You are the maker of your own future, make it a great one, i know you can! love you always!

Thanks Cat! you are swell, really, you are! Trust me, i am not that optimistic, but if you say so, hot damn, i am! You are one of the coolest people i know, and you got some years of growing too....that kicks ass. good luck with all that growing!

Today was a prime goodwill shopping day. Even though i only ended up with a scarf and a pair of sunglasses, the pickins' are definately not slim. This saturday is 50% off making today a full stock day, and no people. I could browse with ease, its a good feeling. I went for sadies but didn't come up too successful with that, they didn't have what i was looking for, yet i did come away with things i wasn't looking for, but now cant live without. LoL.

When I have a hangnail it becomes so irritating, that i always want to like gnaw it off, but always make it worse, thus resorting to a band-aid. The only problem today was, the only band-aids mom brought home were charlie brown space adventure band-aids. so now, the finger that was irritating, now becomes the center of attention....it with its bright blue color and adorable characters. Dont get me wrong, i love charlie brown, but i dont want him attracting people to my disgusting finger. Sorry charlie, you gotta go. Tomorrow, i think i will search for some leftover crayola crayon band-aids....that wont attract attention or anything. I cant win. Oh well. Moral, dont mess with the hangnail, let it be, otherwise you will have this great big long paragraph in your daily blog about stupid stuff, like band-aids. dont go down the same roads i did kids. its not worth it!

I am not feeling too well right now, in fact, i think i am running a temp, because it is 70 in the house........ and i am a whopping 100 degrees. Okay, thats a problem. despite that, i feel......pretty damn tired. Okay, so enough with the small talk, i am gunna take some meds, and go to sleep. Til next time...

....be a doll and drop me a line. in the guestbook preferably. thanks!

good morning sun

I am a bird! Nothing's better than awaking with the sun and blasting Ben Folds in the frigid car. I think, most of the time, my favorite part of the day is when I am driving to/from school. I love watching the sun come up, and covering the snow fields with tints of orange and red. In the afternoon, the surprisingly hot, winter sun turns the snow into a mirror, reflecting the huge blue sky. Even though many people think of winter as a dark, dreary time, i see it with so much color and life. Makes me happy. Even though fall is my favorite season, I think being a winter baby is what makes me like the winter so much. I dont like to drive on the roads though, but besides that, it really is great.

Red day today, filled with lots of information that was lost somewhere along the long, busy 4 day weekend. It has been 6 days since my last red day, making it difficult to recall the elements, and the preamble of the constitution. Soon enough, it all came back to me, but in the process took alot out of me. I was so tired by the end of the day, i found a chair in jazz band, leaned my head back, shut my eyes, and slept through all the tiresome scales the jazz band plays over and over. I had a boring government teacher, a lengthy chem test, a easy but entirely too short math hour(not good for sleeping), and a uneventful orchestra/jazz band hour. Red days are the fullest, but by no means, the best of the days. Gold days are the most simple, sometimes, too simple. English, broadcasting/success, study hall(which usually involves no studying), and Band. Ah well, i mean, i guess the last semester of high school should be kind of a breeze, but my schedule is just kind of unbalanced.

My favorite line of the day,
'The thing Jesus really would've liked would be the guy that plays the kettle drums in the orchestra.'

Lately, as much as i hate structure, the one thing i like the most is lunch hour. I have had A/A lunch all year, and have sat in the same spot the year through. In fact, not much has changed around me, a few people have left or shifted but in general, we are all in the same spots. I find that comforting, and despite the fact that i know i will get the same seat everyday, me and everyone else rush to lunch to get a seat, because deep down we feel like it wont be there or something. it makes me smile. Funny, and stupid, but comforting none the less. Lately, things have been changing for me and i like it, but that lunch seat will be constant til i graduate. I am proud of that.

I know a lil about everything, but dont know jack shit about anything. I need to work on that. Its on my to-do list. Anywayz, I know things may be rough for ya, or just kinda blah, but dont worry things always have a way of perking up, especially when you least expect it. Love ya all, good night. Til next time....

...just keep L.I.V.I.N'!

dont believe disney!

hello one and all! wow what a weekend! and it just keeps coming and coming. I will say to you all, happy belated v-day! hope it was full of love in the most appropriate form for you. V-day was pretty low-key in e-town, not a whole lot of my friends are hooked up or anything, so a loveless pity party was very much needed. except i wasn't having pity on myself, i had all my friends around me, which is, the love, most appropriate for me. it was good times all around.

To start the day off, me beccy and jo went to perkins to get breakfast. We had had a "girls night" the night before at my dad's house. That was loads of fun. Watched Dirty Dancing and Pretty Woman. Breakfast was good, but didn't sit well with me. I was a lil sicky, but felt fine later in the day by the time the basketnall game rolled around. It was an early game against mishawaka. We beat em! it was a great game to. I hardly ever stay til the end of the game anymore so it was a nice change of pace.

more later...gotta go!

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Alright, after the game on v-day i went to 5 o' clock church with my mom and brother. We went to saturday service because we couldn't go this morning. It was pretty bare, but the homily was outstanding. I love my pastors, they are so fulll of energy and their faith is always so strong and you can see it radiate out of them when they speak. Its very uplifting.

After church, i went home and called erin. She had been watching lifetime movies all day and then started lord of the rings. I had to get her out of there. So she came and got me and we went to the atm, then to mcdonalds. we sat and talked about stuff. Work, school, and friends...always entertaining. There was supposed to be a party at misener's for the loveless peoples at like 9:30, 10, so we were kinda just waiting around. So we decided to go to martins so i could buy a pint of bend and jerry's ice cream, my valentine for the night. I picked the one with the appropriate title, Karamel Sutra. It was yummy, almost orgasmic, but not so much, the irony just wasn't there unfortunately. We took my new valentine and went to kmart to talk to rochelle. (We get a day off and we go in and socialize anyway, its pathetic, but evenful none the less.) We soon left and decided to go to my house.

Once at my house, i soon realized that being in my room made erin have an anxiety attack. Turns out she is terrified of butterflies, and well, my room is covered. my bed spread, the walls and picture frames. When i decorated my room like three years ago i was going through a phase, that i still really love. I took down the butterflies and put down the frames and turned the bed spread over. She felt better. We soon found ourselves watching Disney's Pocohantas on tv, and started a heated debate. Erin is pro-white man, and i am pro-indians. Let's jsut say, Disney should be ashamed, the white men diseases eventually wiped out entire peoples, including pocohantas, suck on that. Damn english. anywayz, after that we decided it was time to head out to the party, but we would double check before heading out that it was still on. Well it wasn't, so the party came to my house.

In the end, I had Erin, Collin, Christian, Mike, Jo, and Ryan all at my house. Most didn't leave until like 1:30,2 and erin didn't leave at all. She spent the night, and i awoke early to go to Kmart bright and early. Worked for a few, and came home slept for a few, and now here i sit. I dont know whats up tonight, prolly nothing. tomorrow dentist and rehearsal are in my plans.

This weekend has been nothing less than great. I got to hang with everyone, so its rare. I guess the four days is better than the usual two. I am knocking on wood, and i think things will continue to stay pretty great. Things are just zipping along, and thats the way it should be. I love you all and keep on keepin' on. Til next time....

....dont eat the omlette the day after.

Question of the day:
Who was right in the fight of the new world. The white man or the Indians? sign the guestbook! i want to know!

just call me "corky"

do you remember that show, "life goes on"? i do, and i remember the brother with down syndrome's name was corky. he was so up-beat, and always happy. i love it. he had everything to bitch about but only celebrated life. Thats awesome. "my so-called life" was another show i really liked. It had claire danes in it, and she kicked ass.

Children's concert was today, so all the the little fourth graders from the local elementary came to hear us play. The officers went to "meet and greet" after the concert and handed out pencils. One sweet child asked me what instrument i played and i told him the french horn, he didn't understand by the name so i explained what it looked like, he then understood. then replied, "i dont like that one..I want to play the drums....trumpet...and the saxophone" well i guess you got yourself a one man band there kid, good luck with that, you lil bastard. I am just messing, they all have their dreams. dream on.

well thats all for now, chem homework to do. I love you all, and have a great v-day weekend...its a four day weekend for us! yea! its girls' weekend out! good luck. til next time...

...dont over do it with the candy hearts! "fax me!" i love that one!

just bored

If you want to know the story, dont buy the book. Sign the book, damnit!
lol. nothing much here, i am so bored, and i am dying to have a good time.

"you can be the remedy..."

Hey yall. hump day and, unfortunately, i can not report any activity of that nature what so ever. Its a bummer, but what can you do. The piercing guy said no 'contact' for 6 weeks, considering i get around alot, this might mess things up with my side job. My corner is gunna be empty for a while, so to all my 'regulars', look for me in about two months. LoL, its good to be the slut.

I did go out to the baby grind today after school. I was supposed to meet my friend rachel there, she lives out in dunlap so it was a convienant location for her but not so much for me. I am a nice person though and volunteered my gas instead of hers. Turns out though, she forgot about the meeting and never showed. I wasted about 4 dollars worth of gas and my time, it was a lil upsetting, but not too bad. I got to catch up on some reading. I am re-reading Catcher in the Rye...for some reason once i start reading it, i can't really put it down. I pick up new and interesting details each time. I mean, this is only re-read number 3 but thats still two more times than any other book i have read. I think its the charisma, or lack there of, of Holden. I dont know, if he were real, i think i would like to shoot the shit with him. Seems cool enough to me. I dont know. Which brings me to....

THE QUESTION OF THE DAY! YEA!
If you could meet any character of any book or play, who would it be, and why?
(considering alot of people dont read this, you should just tell me sometime, whenever you get around to it, or if you want to be cool, you should just sign my guestbook. Thats entirely up to you, and if you dont want to participate in the QUESTION OF THE DAY at all, thats ok. but it would be cooler if you did, thats just me talking)

I saw 'Along Came Polly' tonight w/ Kyle and it was so funny. There was nobody in the theatre, which is nice cuz you can talk. ( i have a habit of doing that). If the rumor is true about the movie featuring Ben Stiller and Jack Black...that would be so awesome, i love both of them. The movie is really cute, and a good "date" movie, but i wasn't on a date, ironically. Enough of that.

I am really nervous to go to my private lesson tomorrow with 'lady inglefield'. she is gunna see my tongue and flip out.....she will tell me a bad story about some girl she knew, and all the infections, how i could ruin my mouth permanently, and yadda yadda yadda. It will be the same ol' drivvle that i have heard from every other adult, and i will just sit there and wonder why i pay her 12 dollars for a half an hour of her lame ass stories and experiences. See the whole half an hour is playing out in my head right now, and i am just so depressed about tomorrow...lol. Ugh. Bring on the Knome, i think i can take her. Plus if she gets to close i will just stick my tongue out and repulse her so i can make a clean get-away. LoL, seems to work with CJ Case. Hahahaha. (thats right ho, stay away from my corner)

I put in an old cd today and it really brightened the day. About two years ago i bought this CD by ABANDONNED POOLS. They have this really unique sound. its like a cross of rock and electronic...i dunno. I like it. Anywayz... i leave you with my song of the day.

"Mercy-kiss" by Abandonned Pools
(just a lil something different)

I love you all and take care. Til next time....

...don't beat around that stupid lil bush. Just plow right through it and get on with life!

i dont have a reason

hey yall! crazy weekend here in e-town. Good game friday between memorial and goshen. District Solo and Ensemble contest on Saturday. Fun times at the Tattoo emporium on Saturday night. Senior night for Girls basketball on saturday night. Family visit day here at the bontrager house today, and also a 6 hour shift at the Big-K(aka my super bowl party).

First things first. I got a Blue ribbon! Group 1 and a division 1 win for Shanny B. I am super happy about that. I was so nervous, but i pulled it off. PLus i got to work the Kiosk aka Information/medal distribution during the Contest. Lonnie helped me out from time to time, that was fun. He did very well, along with Cat, Jo, and many others. I always felt bad giving the red ribbons to the ones who were crying, cuz you know that they felt like they were getting jipped. There is always next year...well for most. In celebration of my accomplishment, what better way to welcome the peak of your music career, than to pierce your tongue.

Thats right. I did it. I pierced my tongue. You may be asking yourself, "why?". I dont have a reason. I jsut did it, maybe because i knew i could. Sad i know, but its done, i cant take it back. I wouldn't want to. I did this, and i am fine with it. It didn't hurt surprisingly, in fact, it felt kinda funny. Like burning the tip of your tongue. My tongue is swollen today, but i can still talk normally, and somewhat eat. My giantic tongue gets in the way of me swallowing the food, so i am sure that problem will go away soon. I know i will get alot of flack for this, but i dont care. I did this, and i wouldn't take it back. Its the most risky thing i have ever done and its fine. You may dissaprrove and my shutter at the thought, but get used to it or stop being friends...cuz its not going anywhere, at least for now.

Welp, i just saw the time, and the Lord of the Flies is calling my name. So til next time...

....dont judge a book by its cover, but by the last sentence of its content.