Monday, June 28

what the fuck is a Hoosier?

hey yall. I leave for bloomington tomorrow for orientation. I am excited because my mom has never seen the campus and even though i am going regardless of what she thinks, i would like her approval, you know? it should be a long, long, boring time. scheduling classes that are probably all filled up and being stuck with latino popular music as my freshman seminar. ah well, it could be worse, right? i am just glad i have two days off from the jobs, i have worked four days straight at both jobs, i need a break and some decent sleep. I hate waitressing and then working at Kmart, i would rather just do one or the other, cuz either way they both suck...lol. at least i get tips and full time hours at perkins, at kmart though, i dont really do anything and i get paid pretty decently, so i dont know. i only have about 7 weeks left of this stuff, so i need to just stick it out. my grandparents leave on wednesday, but i will be gone, so i will say my good-byes tomorrow morning. Its always nice to have em here, but after two weeks i am just done with it all. last summer, it was granparent season the whole entire summer, seriously. 7 weeks, no joke. it was awful. i can't wait to sleep in my own bed on thursday, its gunna be great! well, thats all for me now, i have more to say, but can't find the words. take it easy as always. til next time...
...keep spreading the love, safely that is.

Wednesday, June 23

its all business

life aint a free ride. there are always hidden fees. check the fine print before jumping into any contract. thats a word of advice.

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Monday, June 21

forgive me its a monday

Hey yall! como estas?

probably one of the funniest things i heard today...
me and erin are driving to mishawaka on the corner of main and university, and its raining rather hard and the light has yet to turn green. so all of the sudden erin says, "oh, i guess its thundering now." as a pimped out truck rolls by. my response, "erin, look....its the car."
a sad erin then replies, "shut up i thought it was thunder, leave me be! hahaha"
that was one of the funniest things i heard today. there you have it.

QUESTION OF THE DAY!!!!
alright this segment has been put off for a couple of weeks, but its back, maybe not better than ever, but back none the less. with this in mind.....shall we?!

******If you could be the headliner in any big time broadway show/musical, which one would it be?*********
(if you dont know any, pick a movie and substitute)
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things are alright here for the most part, tired and cranky as usual. you know me, always a downer. lol. i am just kidding, i am peachy-keen. things are going really well. working almost full time for perkins now, and about 25 hours a week at kmart too. i dont like that a whole lot, but its more money than i have been exposed to in the past, so i dont mind it too bad i guess...lol. i might drop kmart though....it would help lighten the load i think. ah well we will see.

well for now i am gunna get going, bed time has been moved up, til next time...
...keep having a shabangin' good time!

Saturday, June 19

the silent one

i have never been one to take the spotlight.....yeah right! lets just say this...i wait til the time is right to take things over. But last night i went overboard. I hate not knowing why or how i get places, its not a good feeling. Today i found my hand rather swollen and my middle finger rather stiff. I dont know how i hurt it, its a battle wound, from the battle of love. "love is a battlefield" hahaha. i love pat benatar. Round Two should commence tonight, hopefully no mishaps. i am having a really great summer, its just going the way i had hope. I am not having too much fun, just enough. i am working two jobs successfully, but i dont know how long thats gunna keep going on. lol. i might have to drop one...lol. i dont know which though....we will see. i need feedback...i need new blog title ideas. drop em in the guestbook. plus, drop whatever you want in my guestbook, everything is welcome. i got to go sleep it off....check ya later! til next time...
...dont eat hotcakes too early in the morning, its not good for you.

Thursday, June 17

the amazing enigma known as Shanny Bonzizzle

Hey yall! well i have really started working at perkins as well as kmart now. for awhile i am sure you all thought i was bluffing, but i was not. for a while there i thought i didn't even have a job there but i do. i am in server training right now, which means...i bus tables and clean up all the shit. thats cool, you got to start somewhere. People that i went to school with work there too, which helps take a lil bit of the pressure off, i guess. I mean, they aren't people i knew to well in highschool but would always share a smile or two with. I like it though, i have always liked working with people, even the mean ones, they make you grow stronger...you know? I have been serving drinks and greeting tables, so i half the act down, and the other half to go. It gets a lil easier each time i pick up the tray. At one point, i thought, damn..it must suck to be a lifetime waitress, i mean they obviously can't do it for the money or the people, so i wonder why? so i asked a server who had been there at perkins for 8 years, and i asked her, why she had stayed a waitress for so long. She said, that she couldn't honestly see herself being anything other than a waitress, its what she was good at and she didn't want to stray away. so mostly she stayed a waitress because she was scared to do anything else. I am doing it for extra cash for college...i dont think i will be coming back next summer.

Kmart is as wonderful as ever. i found out that erin is putting her two weeks in at kmart tomorrow. i can't believe it, how can i work at kmart without erin. she has been a constant there, i mean, it will be like i am a lost dog or something, wont know how to function. as inconveinant as it is to share a locker with her, it was the best fun. but then i was thinking about it and i think it will be alright considering i will be sharing a dorm room with her for 8 consecutive months...hahaha. if i thought sharing a locker was bad....wait til we see what this fall brings. stay tuned for all the IU action unfold right here at CAUTION:SLIPPERY WHEN WET

by the way, i hate my title i am gunna change it soon, dont expect anything too deep or meaningful or anything that really stands out as a creative mind. i usually suck at anything that involves using creative writing skills. i have a wild and vivid imagination but no way of channeling it to better uses other than pyshcotic neurosis.

i was looking at my Anne Geddes calendar today, and i thought that the month of June was particularly adorable. the little baby in this one is all wrap up in a giant rose, some could find this rather disturbing, and it was all pink and cuddly. She was sleeping in a giant rose garden of giant roses. it is precious. my favorite of all months though has been january. two little babies in those pastel terry cloth jump suits sleeping upright in a giant honey pot, stating, Pure Honey. I mean that is Pure Genius. My calendar brings me so much happiness, i have no idea why i am so obsessed with these pictures, but they are so adorable. the calendar may be small in size, but big in satisfaction.

if you haven't noticed by now, this not a very structured entry, thats okay. it gets kind of boring just writing out an itinerary, you know? I got coldplay mix in, and just typing what i am thinking. i think thats the most fun. when you get home from the night out and just go to my computer in the dark and just type away your day. its great. i think so anyway. i love venting, or not venting, for hours. alright that was kind of like best in show, but i did just watch that a couple of hours ago. great flick. speaking of flicks...

...i went with Erin, Rochelle, her boyfriend Cameron, and Lizzie from work to go see The Day After Tomorrow after i got off work. it was interesting....but i think i had more fun listening to rochelle and erin laugh and talk than i did watching the movie. it was not a very good movie. not a lot going on....it kinda drags, then just kind of stops. its too broad and then all of a sudden not broad enough. they just forget about the people that they wasted all that time introducing and focused all there time to one person. i dont like that. too choppy and then not choppy enough....not a good thing. not a fan. it was more funny than anything, thats really mean, but hey. it was a movie about weather.....weather. oh i am scared now...hahaha.

but i think i am gunna wrap this up for now, but yall are beautiful! til next time...

...dont dump fresh water into the sea. the the inbalance will cause an ice age...just ask dennis quaid.

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Sunday, June 13

"you are not born gay, you are born again."

just a lil taste of what the movie, SAVED!, has to offer. its crazy funny and just shows the neurotic side of christianity. its great fun, and had me laughing the whole time! its a definate must see

Friday, June 11

"you just got to let it go"

Its 2:12am and i just got done watching "When Harry met Sally" and i have to say that it is probably one of the best movies i have seen. Sounds crazy i know, but its night like these, where i am up just thinking....thinking about nothing imparticular and that movie comes on. It really made me think about how complex love is and yet how simple it is. I dont by any means want to fall in love with my enemy turned best friend, but i do want to just simply fall in love with someone i can say is my best friend. someone who loves all my imperfections and finds them just as important as my good qualities. Thats what i want, but i know it comes only when its ready. i am not sad and lonely, just lonely. i am quite happy and i dont really want any relationship, but i would like someone i could just be cool with. i miss feeling like im apart of something more than a casual hook up. i dont want to just hook up with random people, in the end it makes you feel even more alone than before. i mean i am 18 i am not going to die because i am not seeing anyone, but damn,it sucks to not have someone. As cliche as this sounds, I want "my first" to be with someone who knows me like my best friend, but loves me like i am the only one.

okay okay, so i am lil bummed, but hey. just cuz i have no one right now doesn't mean i am gunna be alone forever. its just temporary. things are gunna look up for me soon, i will be ready. i guess watching sappy love movies at 2 in the morning will do that to any sane single person.

hahaha
..."its gunna be love and its gunna be strong enough"

Tuesday, June 8

summer love

oh love is in the air, but i haven't been fortunate enough to take a deep breath yet. but hey i just love seeing everyone happy. it makes me happy. check ya later!

Saturday, June 5

RIP

today two great people, along with thousands more, lost their battle with death today. although one is highly noted, the other is not. Ronald Reagan, america's most well spoken president died today at the age of 93. He was a great man. He was president during my first two years of life, god bless him. so i will forever have a bond with him. i always liked his good speaking skills, he was flawless. I guess being an actor prior to entering politics helped him out in that department. i always wanted to do that. be famous than seek the glory. he was a trooper and lived with Alzheimers for ten years.
Today another great person left this earthly world and passed on to something better. My Great Aunt Ruth lost her battle with cancer today. she was always the cool relative to show up at parties and stuff, because she spoiled the kids all the time. She had no kids of her own, but loved all kids as though they were her own. I had put off going to see her the past couple of times, because i had taken her for granted. i just assumed she was going to live forever, like her and my grandma on my dad's side had always said they would. I will regret that for the rest of my life. Tomorrow, before my party, i was going to pay her a visit, but i was one day too late. It sucks. she was great person, who set out to do everything she had always dreamed of. She did them. All her dreams of moving out west and living on the coast and painting just for the love of it. That was her.
Now looking back, i think i would rather follow in her footsteps than ronalds. he had the fame and glory, but Ruth had the true glow of loving life. I will miss her. I just wish i had more time to show that i really did love her.
I am not gunna sit here and say life is short and you have to live it to the max. its not short at all. its as full and as long as you make it. she made her life long and happy despite the actual numerical number of years she lived. without happiness and love, the crazy and wild things you did throughout wont matter. so just live. dont go overboard. just follow through with your dreams, you deserve to be happy.
stay safe and love.
til next time...
...dont be a stranger!

Tuesday, June 1

HERE WE GO......