its been awhile

i know its been awhile but this isn't going to be lengthy. i am not going to post anything til after the big move down to bloomington, so it will be a few days! til next time...have fun going back to school, young and old, much love!

things are changing

well, things change. or dont for that matter, and i have to be okay with that. i most definately am facing change and i am loving the excitement and hating the sadness. things get wiggy but thats a good change of pace. my friends have been there for me, and i have been there for them. things used to seem so perfect that i wouldn't even imagine wanting to move and go to school but i realize now that things aren't always how they seem, and i am glad i know that. bring on life. i love you all! muah!

i hate this

i am so tired of working, i dont see any of my friends. i see beccy like all the time, and thats great, i love her to death, but i dont see anyone else. i see erin like once a week and everyone else like once every two weeks. it sucks. i get a day off hoping to see them and then i get suckered into working or something, or they dont want to hang out. i am just so tired of coming home from work and then sleeping for an hour and then going right back to work. its exhausting. and if i do get to go out, i have to strategically plan what i am gunna do so i am not going to bed too late or exhausting myself even more. i am so fucking tired. i just found out that i am leaving the last weekend i would have been in elkhart to go on vacation with my dad and my brother and sister. and all the purdue kids and drew leave the weekend of the 14th...the last weekend i am still working. i know i am being very dramatic and overreacty but i prolly will see them for like two hours some night casually and then not see them again til december to me that sucks and i am just dealing with alot of stuff right now and the last thing i want to stress over is fucking perkins or kmart. i work two shit hole jobs for less than most of my friends get at one. ugh!