...says erin

hey hey hey faithful readers. heres to another boring update.....i did this and i did that....its more like I did him and I did him over there...hahhahaa, just jerking your chain....wait, i mean, i just joking with you. oh man, sometimes i get in deep shit with my mouth...not literally. I CANT WIN!! oh well....

....had an interesting conversation with two people at the same time. because one was using me to type to the other....i ask you this. why can't my roommate get on her computer and talk to the other person personally instead of risking the danger of a typo? my hands could have slipped and chaos could have started after i change the word "like" into "lick" you never know when shit like that could go down. it was scary. but it was fun....i felt like those ladies in the court room...whatcha call-its.

man i really lost my writing rythym...so just keep it tuned in to your favorite station and stay up to date with the lastest shanny b happenings...til next time...

....dont take the ones you love for granted.

home is where your heart is....

My heart is here in bloomington....it took a weekend in elkhart to realize that. i love you mom and dad, but some things change for the better...this is definately it.

Variety Lights

I could teach kids....i mean, if i was like any of the teachers i encountered throughout my primary education, i think i would be more than able. but...the pay sucks, but shouldn't the reward for inspiring children and enriching their lives be payment enough? one would think so...maybe some day it would, but if i had to decide right now, i think teaching would be out the window...

I could be a film critic...that would be great. Watching every kind of movie and using my college educated mind to tell other people what to like or not like. but then you get the occassional film that causes some people to re-evaluate their lives and some people to re-evaluate whether or not to go to the movies anymore. I would have to decide what i thought....and then, i would get threatening letters from the neigh-sayers when the movie they absolutely hated won the best picture oscar....i dont think i could handle being rejected like that...i dont know, maybe by then i would be tough as nails...but right now, i am too sensative for show business. it would eat me up and spit me out....

I could be a whore......wait...i think i might be really good at that! i guess i am paying 12,000 a year to be a whore and live in a trailer with a husband named hank and a boyfriend name earl. it will be great. i will be the trailer park scholar...yes!!!

but seriously...i am here at IU enjoying it thouroughly...the scenery is breath-taking, the people are fabulous, and the programs are astounding. i couldn't be in a better place to explore what i would like to do with my life. Communications and Culture gives me alot of those humanities options, so its the best major to have at this point. Business is always a possibility and SPEA is a possibility as well...i guess only time will tell. and 4 weeks is not enough time, but its enough time to tell me that this place kicks ass.

Last night, if you dont live at Forest Quadrangle, you missed one hell of a show. It was emergency vehicle night here at Forest. Fire Alarm pulls and ambulance calls filled the air and the circle drive. Luckily, Forest A did not have a fire drill, so i got to sit in my 11th floor abode and looked down at all the Forest B wussies flood out of the building. At least whoever pulled their alarm did it at a decent hour in the middle of the week. Forest A's lil helion pulled it early Sunday morning about two weeks ago...you try rushing down 11th flights of stairs with a hangover. its no fun...but anywho...
...kids are screaming and ranting and raving about the "fucker", they said it not me, that pulled the alarm. oh i love the flag pole misfits. for those of you who dont know those are the lovely kids who smoke til 3 in the morning and teepee the front oak tree because they dont have real friends(maybe they do, but for my stories sake, they dont). the misfits were not worried about it all because they were already out there smoking away, so they got a free show. As for the Forest A kids, such as myself, it was a pleasure to see the chaos....
....after the the building was cleared and everyone went back inside about two hours later...three IUPD patrol cars come racing up to Forest B....soon after an unmarked police cruiser and an ambulance....oh shit was going down. We were trying to figure out which floor needed all that assistance. me and erin determined that floors 1-7 were full of curious spectators too, so the commotion wasn't on that floor. then 11down to 9 were deamed the same...so that left 8...that was our lucky number. although we would never find out if we were correct or not, we like to think 8 was the floor. the gurny went in and it came out...nobody on it. no show. nothing....all the build up and not delivery.(not that enjoy other peoples pain and i did not want anyone to be hospitalized, i would like to have seen the cops bring someone out in cuffs though) no activity what so ever. the cops went responding to another call and fled out of the ol' quadrangle circle drive and the ambulance slowly drove back to the hospital....forest fell silent once more. but...
....we hear fire trucks in the distance...could it be possible that another alarm was pulled in the same night? no it isn't, thats why the trucks did not grace us with their presence for a second time in one night. darn. i wish third st wasn't a ambulance route, cuz we get all excited when they drive by and then let down when they continue to pass....
....the days they stop, they take our calm 11th floor exsistence and escalade it up to a place of curiousity and excitement. *To all those who suffer at our pleasure, we are sorry and we know we will suffer great firey wrath when we are no longer of this world, but for now, we will keep on gathering when we see those flashing red and blue lights

this is a Public Service Announcement:
platform flip flops....when worn by girls(and in some rare cases guys) this is an indirect cry for help. if you or someone you love is wearing platform flip flops or any other kind of tall sandal type shoe please seek help immediately. these kind of fashion mistakes can be treated and prevented.
(this is strictly my opinion, and i know its wrong to judge people by what they wear, but ugh, i hate it. i am sure they are swell people...but damn it change your shoes. thats all i have to say about that)

i like it how the leaves are losing there leaves and changing colors. i can see it from my window...i look off of campus so i see miles and miles of trees and they are so beautiful. they are mostly still green but a lighter brown green, with yellow in the mix as well as fire red. its awesome...on the way back from class today i was walking from ballantine behind the music school and leaves were flying everywhere and it was like 85 which threw me off but made me stop and appreciate the beauty i have already begun to ignore or take for granted. i hope each season is just as beautiful as the last.

oh my...i think this is where i leave you for today. this weekend is elkhart weekend so i wont be updating til, probably knowing me, two weeks from now but hopefully sooner. til next time...

...be safe, be smart, and just be happy. everything will just fall in place after that. hasta!

homeward bound

it looks like i am going back to good ol' elkhart this weekend. I need a mom weekend. It looks like she wont be coming down before thanksgiving so i dont want to wait til then to see her, so i am gunna go home and visit. it will be nice to sleep in my big bed again. Ol' bloomington will probably be jumping though this weekend because i am leaving, so thats gunna be a bummer, but i think every now and then a person needs to go back. I will have waited a month before going back...i think thats safe. I definately like bloomington better, but the only thing elkhart has over bloomington is my bed, my mom, and my car...i miss all of those things. my mom will probably make me go to church with her on sunday, so i will have to answer that most popular question with college students..."how do you like school?" or "Are you doing well down there?"....even if i was having problems with school, i dont think i would start telling random people from the congregation..i would probably lie and say,"oh its great!" but thankfully i dont have to lie, so yay for not lying at church! ugh. I still have a lot of faith but church is starting to not fill me as much. i feel like i am not doing my part well enough to deserve it or something. like i dont want it bad enough so i shouldn't make church suffer by having me waste space. i think thats a pretty awful way to think about it...
...things change.

I just know about myself sometimes....
...what can i say other than, i am trying.

well thats enough for now...til next time...
...dont wait around for something to happen, get your lazy ass up and please do something about it.
VOTE KERRY/EDWARDS IN 2004!!

i am crazy...

raise your hand if you think i am crazy...

Public Transportation!!!

fuck you bloomington transit!!!! fuck you! my life is not worth that air-conditioned bus ride to the mall...no thank you sir. fuck you and your smoking habits, driver man. okay, unacceptable. there are people on this bus who want you to brake safely and efficently, not whenever you realize you might be driving on the curb and end up hitting pieces of federal property. that shit is not cool. not cool! you know things aren't good when you hear the driver go, ah man....(soundfx:big huge bump..crackle crackle). i am thinking there is a IU pedestrian lying on the ground behind the bus...even if someone did get hit you wouldn't have known cuz he would have been like, oh shit...we going. we would have been driving for hours out of town. we'd be on the news..."college town public bus on the run after striking and killing young IU co-ed" " driver has recently been identified as ex-convict, jamal alejandro. just coming off a 8 year sentence for manslaughter by automobile." shit.....i am not for that. i think i might just start walking, i mean, i could have walked to the mall faster than we got there, i get on 4:21, get there at 5:15....is that right? if it is, i guess i got it all wrong about this whole conveinant public transportation thing. my huffy...is my new friend. so you just watch out for those damn bloomington transit buses. parent weekend is this weekend...i can't even imagine the kind of damage these things are gunna cause during this important weekend. entire families are gunna be wiped out...god help us. so maybe, you should consider a red bus. just maybe....

I went to a College Democrat discussion meeting yesterday night and had a blast. they are awesome. i feel alot more educated about the election and not just from the democrat side but from all angles. everyone is so excepting and nice. This is a great group. Discussing the kerry campaign and important issues...such as the democrats being to passive and how they need to step it up and get a lil more aggressive. which is true. i hope to keep going to some of the meetings.

Remember!: first presidential debate is on September 30th! get educated! hear the candidates speak on issues that concern you!

i got to go study, til next time...
...pay your friends to drive. free isn't all its cracked up to be.

I was just informed that Elkhart, IN was voted MOST LIVABLE CITY in the USA for 2004! WTF?! go to this website...you be the judge.http://www.elkhartindiana.org
crazy dave pulled another rabbit out of his hat with that whole "supposed" riverwalk shit. good one dave!

aim days and itunes nights

Well...its been quite a while. I keep saying I am going to update and all that stuff, but it jsut never happens. I guessI just realized what a terrible writer I really am. No one should have to read this. I bet no one really does. I am more accomplished in other things. Like speaking, i am a damn fine speaker when i have it planned out and all that, but i tend to mumble and speed talk when i get it off the top of my head. I also am pretty good and being opinionated. I tend to speak up and voice my opinion without being able to back out what i just said. Thats a bit of a flaw. I tend to sit in the front of class and fall asleep, that makes the girl who got stuck in the back because she was late a little angry. I tend to do that alot. I tend to listen to my music to loud and dont care what anyone else says and then i bitch them out for doing the same. I guess you could say i dont really do a whole lot more accomplished things....thats a lil disgruntling. If i am not accomplished in anything particular, dont you think i would be a lil depressed or something? hmm...not really. i like being average in almost everything, because i am not at the bottom and i dont have to be the best to matter. I do know what i do rock in....being me. i am awesome at that. i kick ass in that department. i am moody and silly and i love it. i love to make horrible jokes that make people laugh just because they know how ridiculous it is. My absolute favorite thing to do is: People Watch. I love watching people, not in a stalker way but in an observant, innocent way. Living on the top of forest A i can look down on the street and see different people walking and i can see people having fun in their dorms in forest B across the way...and yes, they tend to get a lil freaky but i am not like that. I am not a voyeur...lol. I just really love it here, and i am not going to be something i am not. i am gunna be happy with being me for once. i haven't been this happy in prolly years. I feel so welcome and accepted down here. The campus is so liberal and i love that as well. The people i have met are just awesome and are so diverse. I just feel comfortable being me, there are no clicks here(well there are but they dont stand out). this may not make any sense, but thats okay. i know how i feel inside and i feel good. i feel beautiful and loved. i feel happy. i felt these things in little doses before back home, but here, i feel it all the time. my self esteem has reached an all time high. That may change, i mean, its only been a week and a half, but its been the best week and a half of my entire life. I do miss my home, my mom, my dog, my friends who are all over and still in elkhart, and my car(driving especially)..but those things will be there waiting for me, this is my time to explore. I have earned this! i am taking my once in lifetime experience and running with it. i hope you all can relate now or someday. til next time...
...just be happy with yourself!