28 days never fails me

Its sunday night......and i am not going to pretend that i am okay with the weekend ending. because i am not. its always rough and unfair, but it always comes back. Its the dependability of time. its comforting, time. no matter what happens, good or bad, its always there. in a way the idea of time always being constant never changing is sad, but i look at with possibility. Knowing i will live and then die used to scare me, but if i have learned anything from this school year, its that living and then dying is a blessing in disguise. It forces me to want to live to the fullest, even though i let my inner mom prevent me from doing what i really want to do because i am scared of losing my control, i still live to the best of my ability. There are lots of things i say that i wish i could take back but the reality is that i wouldn't change anything. you have to make mistakes and be heart-broken once or twice or multiple times in your life to appreciate the rewards of being alive. I'm what you call a non-cliche cliche. i do what is expected and anticipated but in an unlikely fashion. i am thankful for that.

BLOG HOMEWORK #2

For my website project I have ultimately come to a decision. Although it was not easy, after countless sleepless night, it has been decided. My group presentation is about the Digital Divide, and I found my topic to relate to that subject. Instant Messenger: Is It Just The Beginning? I felt this was appropriate because of the obsession and dependency society has developed with this kind of Communication. This latest craze has replaced older forms of communication like correspondence and even aspects of the telephone. An even more instant form of email, instant messenger is constantly changing, developing, and becoming even more advanced. So what's next?

I believe Instant Messenging, along with other revolutionary inventions in history, is constantly being developed into a bigger and better communication tool. This kind of technology will only help us uncover a new and even better and faster source of communication. A creation of the Information Age, it will be the stepping stone for communication and interaction that only sci-fi movies were able to create. On my website, I will look at were it began, how it became such a huge phenomenon, who/how it is being used, and where it soon will be going. Instant Messenging has become a household term where 10 years ago it was only heard of in rich and advanced households. With my study and research we will fully explore the world Instant Messenging has opened up and what is to come.

endless rain

I have had quite the weekend. My birthday is today, but it has been celebrated all weekend long. I have never had a birthday quite like this one, and thats a nice change of pace. Saturday was great, party at the commons. The boys got their house for next year and that is definately worth celebrating. Nick and Dan came down from Purdue for the weekend and came to the party, and Beccy came from Elkhart. She left the next day for Colorado, she made Bloomington her last stop before moving out there, i am really going to miss her. I wont see her for a long time, and that makes me sad but at the same time i am really very proud of her and wish her the best, she deserves it. The party was full and everyone had a great time.

Sunday was a little more lazy. the day consisted of riding hanging around with schuyler and sleeping. Sunday night being lonely i got a call from rachel who wanted me to go the commons to hang out and i wasn't going to refuse an invitation. i got there to find most of my friends, including erin who had said she was downstairs, and they had baked me a cake and all that fun stuff. Lindsay got me a cool glass frame and put a bunch of great pictures of us in it. I got a pinata from drew and danielle, it was a spongebob. We busted the hell out of it later that night in the stairwell of the apartment complex. It was a nice little gathering that i wasn't expecting because of the party the night before and the lunch i knew we would go to the next day.

Monday, a group of about 10 of us, went to China Buffet to eat lunch. We did this because last year we did the same, and i would like to make it a tradition. But if it doesn't become one, thats alright. Later in the afternoon, ant and i saw SIDEWAYS. It was good, but i was expecting alot more out of it. i wanted to see this for a long time and it is definately worth seeing but i think i have seen better movies than that this year. It did very well at the Golden Globes which is cool but i hope to see other movies win at the Oscars. Well see....

For now i was just giving a run down of the weekend, i have more to say but not really in the mood. Thanks for the birthday wishes and i hope you all have a great day. til next time...
..some assumptions are correct.

BLOG HOMEWORK

1.)Here is a list of all the digital communication/information devices that I use on a regular basis:
a.) Picture Cellphone
b.) TV
c.) Desktop Computer
d.) Portable CD player
e.) VHS/DVD player
f.) Digital Alarm Clock w/ Radio
g.) Radio/Cd player

2.) My parents and grandparents came from an extremely small town in michigan, so the latest technologies weren't always available, according to my mother, whom i talked to earlier today on believe it or not my cellphone between classes.
a.)The television was available in my parents' home but not in my grandparents.
b.)The radio was available to both generations, and even in my parents' generation the radio was widely more used and more accessible than a TV.

3.) In those generations, there was really only two electronic sources of information. Radio and Television had limited technologies but those were the only options in that field. Creating a television capable of hundreds of channels of specific interests and radio streams that were flawless and focused on a particular listeners needs and wants were all ideas worth working toward in the future. If knowing what I know now about media and news information back then I would be more skeptical about the way information was being presented through these new mediums. A new and exciting technology puts people in awe, giving the creators of this technology the opportunity to take advantage of the viewer/listener. Radio shows in the 30s and 40s had fictional broadcasts that would relay false information to the listener and make them believe whatever they wanted to believe, it wouldn't be til after the broadcast was over would they say it was a hoax, sometimes they would not at all. This kind of manipulation might be in good fun but its not fair to trick these people, my grandparents generation, for it makes them more vulnerable to the terrorists of the new technologies that are present today. My grandparents like there basic 16 channel cable and radio in their florida condo and have no interest in the internet or cell phones, this is because they are comfortable with this technology and do not feel confident learning about the new advancements my generation have created. Even my mother doesn't get the internet. She called me last night in fact asking me how to access her email. I told her to left click the "read" button and she got really confused. I had to talk her through the entire "read"/"delete" process over the our cell phones no less, but we got side tracked when she lost the signal on her phone and continued to talk to me well after we had been disconnected. She is willing and trying to learn but at this point cant really be taught, because when things get tough, compared to the way they used to be, she folds and just goes back to the land-line phone and watches a vhs tape(because the DVD player is certainly out to get her). It just goes to show that if you are willing and the technologies are available and you haven't been really exposed to any other way of doing things, your ability to use and create media is definately going to be higher than that of someone older like in their 50s and 60s(not that they can't learn and haven't done great things in the field, but that is a small percentage.) I will breathe a little easier when my momwants to get me that I-Pod for my birthday and not that tripod i took back in December when i got it for christmas.

4.) Well I talked to my mom who is 50 years old and she feels she needs to get with the techonology craze. She doesn't want to be left behind as her friends are sending emails and calling cell phones to get information out about parties and get-togethers and such. she doesn't like checking email and using her cellphone, she feels she is being judged for not being technologically savvy. She gets upset that when i came home for winter break I immediately spent all my time on my cell phone or internet because i think she is jealous. thats just a thought. She wants to be with it, but its harder for her to get the stuff right without help. She wants to do it on her own and feels dvd/internet/cell phones are way more complicated and just make life more dependent on technology then before. she is only adapted because of the way society is making it apart of life, but she prefers the simpler things in life. I feel that this techonology is so simple that i feel it should be more accessible to people. I think it should be more inexpensive and easier to gain access too, but for right now I continue to want to learn about new and growing technologies while my mom is just learning enough to get by.

one more reason to blog

its a been awhile. currently i am chewing on a twist tie(probably not the best of ideas) and listening Sufjan Stevens. I must say collin, not bad...not bad at all. even though you are a boilerboy i still love your great music tastes.

I haven't updated in awhile....i thought i would as soon as i got to back to bloomington but i just found myself in a frenzy of things i would rather do and things i should do that i just didn't find the time to blog. i wish i could do it more, not because i feel i should, but because i want to....so maybe i will make it my 12 day late new year's resolution.....
Shanny's New Year's Resolution for 2005:
To blog more!
You heard it here first folks. get on my ass if i dont, but if its a choice between homework and blogging i think i will pick homework by default but not by preference. Ironically one of my classes requires me to blog....by assigning assignments to be done on blog i will be soon posting for my new class Telcommunications 101 - Living in the Information Age. this class is really interesting and maybe will keep on that same pace all semester long, that would be great.

Just to put your minds at ease, i am no longer chewing on that twist tie, i am now sucking on a delicious fat free twizzler...yum! i knew you all cared so much!

its 66 as we speak. i am not used to this kind of weather in january....i know this month pretty well, for this is my birth month and never has there been a january in memory that has been this warm. freaky....but apparently it is supposed to srop rapidly tonight and stay there....so snow for my birthday as usual. oh well today was fabulous....what moer could a college pedestrian ask for?! well i would like an ipod....maybe the ipod fairy will visit me on my birthday...doubt it though. i would be happy with some AA batteries and some cash so i can buy cigarettes. oh well.....well jsut deal with it when it comes. dont want to be too greedy!

til next time...
...gangstas walk and pimps dont talk. keep that in mind.

lame ass

its sunday, a day of rest and relaxation to prepare weary minds for the week ahead or simply reflect on the week previous, which is always good. Everytime i do post, i change my title or profile, nothing ever sounds good enough. maybe i should focus on the more simple titles....it may just work for me. things seem to work out that way; the simpler things are presented to be, the better things turn out. thats not to say that the more complicated things are, the worse they turn out, its just the way it sounds: more complicated. I have never been the one to have good grammar or spelling skills, so i dont have that going for me or anything, but i like to think that i am pretty good at taking simple information and complicating the hell out of it. Example: the other day i said the word hell in front of my mom and she flipped out. Told me i had been using that word way too carelessly and too often for her taste and the habit never started til i came back from school. What does that mean? Does she think less of me because of a bad vocabulary choice? Does she simply think i have been away from the church too long? i dont know, i have actually been struggling with it. i took every comment to heart after that. was she being serious? is she mad? should i say this or not say that? i dont know, and to tell you the truth i still dont. but i do know that i am not afraid of those questions anymore, i am not going to censor the way i think just because it may not fit with her conservative, christian, country lifestyle. i love my mom more than anything, but i dont want her to change for me, and she shouldn't have to, but i dont want to have to change for her. Some people think that what i am doing is dis-respectful, i think it would be more dis-respectful to lie to her about how i feel about things just so i dont "offend" her. She has the right to know how i feel, just like i have the right to how she feels. this is how families work. Also she is engaged now. My mom is getting married. its weird. my parents have been apart for 8 years so i have always been thinking, geeze when are they going to re-marry, but now that it has actually come up, i dont know, i guess i am confused. i want my mom to be happy, and the more i think about it the more i feel she deserves it more than anything. i like to believe she waited to get engaged til now because of me, sounds really selfish i know, but i truly believe my mom wouldn't uproot our way of life. when i say our, i mean me and my mom. Me and her have been extremely close, closer than i think we would have been if my parents were still married, and i think she was worried that getting married would ruin that. Even if that isn't the reason i like to think it is. Its weird to think it wont just be us girls anymore, but she'll have a husband and i will gain another "parent" i love ken and i think he is the best person to take care of my mom and i think she is the best person for her. I am growing up and moving out and i want to be happy and in love, she deserves it. Its tough, i will no longer be the center of attention in the house anymore when i am home, but i need to get used to that. i wont be able to take the spotlight as easily as could before, especially in the work world. So this preparation for maturity. I welcome it, but i dont want to get hit to hard. too much too fast may be the worse thing ever, i tend to break down when given too much information. but thats what life does....it shapes us. And blah blah blahbity blah.....being deep makes me sound stupid because i am pretty daph. anywho...can't blame a girl for trying.

i got to end this, before i start diving into things i wont even be able to comprehend. i love you all and hope that whatever it is that keeps you from being completely happy dies away as you learn and grow. til next time....
...dogs can look up you know.